I FEEL DEPRESSED and helpless about the way my life is going. I don’t have a job and can’t get one, though I have been trying for months.
I’m willing to do just about anything because it ain’t easy living from day to day, not knowing how or where you’re going to get money to meet your needs.
Thankfully, I have been able to get a few jobs cleaning houses and ironing clothes, but I can’t get anything steady as things are tight with most people too.
Still, the thought of meeting my weekly commitments – rent every Saturday for the room I live in, food and so on, and no clue where the money is going to come from most times – has me feeling down.
That is why I sometimes feel like ending my misery. If it wasn’t for The Bible and the daily ministering I get from that, I swear I would have gone over the edge already.
That is why, too, I am not going to prostitute myself to make money to survive like some women. No, not me.
I was not raised like that. Imagine that I called about a job and was told it entailed doing massage. When I told them I did not know anything about massaging, the woman said that was not a problem, I just had to do what the men wanted.
Who she talking to? Me? I am no prostitute. I will never let Satan overcome me.
I am not a lazy person so I would prefer to work than to wait on handouts from people.
But there are just some things I will not do for money, and going with men is one of them.
The Lord has been too good to me even throughout this ordeal for me to do that. He has put a number of people in my path who helped me tremendously. If it was not for them, I would have been on the streets long ago and would have gone hungry most days.
Those people are average Bajans who barely have enough for themselves so I can’t burden them. But it’s things like those that show me my Saviour lives and seeks to provide for His children in some way.
With things getting harder, though, I can’t keep depending on just those few people all the time. If they continue so, just now they would be in crisis too. That is why I want to make a special appeal through this column for people to be their brother’s keeper, especially during these difficult times.
I believe when you do good when you can, then good things happen for you when you are in need. That is why I’m sure the Father has put people in place to help me because when I was working, I used to do things for those in need. I only got into this state after I lost everything when my house burned down and, shortly after that, I got laid off.
That’s why I’m appealing to Bajans to genuinely help their brothers and sisters in need and not to take advantage of those who are struggling.
