I am so angry right now that if I didn’t have the mind that I do for myself, I would do something crazy.
Would you believe my woman is flirting around with a medical professional to whom I once sent her to have tests done for an infection she had?
The man is supposed to be my friend, yet he is doing a number with my woman.
How I know this is because I followed her to his office on her off day. I drove behind the bus she got in. It was 12:30 when she got up there. That is the time on that day his office would have been closing.
I let her go in and waited for a little while before I went into the office too.
When I went in and asked for her I was told she was in the examination room. I looked down the aisle and saw that the door to the room was shut.
I went outside and waited in my car. She never came out of that room until 2:50 p.m.
You could believe that?
What could the two of them have been in there doing except the obvious?
When I heard her voice inside the office speaking to the receptionist I went back in and confronted her. She was sweating. You could see she was up to something.
When she saw me, she jumped because she never expected to see me there. She couldn’t say anything. But I was so vex I couldn’t say anything either. I just got in the car, slammed the door and drove off.
I was just so vex that if I had said something and she gave me talk, I don’t know what I would have done.
How I got on to what she was up to was the texts I found on her phone between her and the doctor. I confronted her when I accidentally found them and asked her what was going on. She told me that he texted her, so she texted him back.
As I know him, I called and asked how he could try to horn me? He told me that it was nothing like that. He said the two of them hit it off when he met her and she asked for his number so that if another problem developed she could communicate directly with him.
I bought that. But as the days and weeks went by, I realized that something seemed to be going on. She was careful, so I did not get hold of her phone again to peep at who she was texting. But something just told me to watch her close, so when her off day came and she seemed cagey about what she was doing, I figured she was up to something and I was right – dead right.
But, you know, I deserve this. Fellows warned me that this woman likes to mess around with different men. I remember once when we were together a man actually cursed her in front of me and said she was no good. She was so hurt by that that she admitted to me that what he accused her of was true – she did like a lot of men.
After she was so honest with me and cried about it, I told her that that did not matter to me. I forgave her for whatever she would have done and made up my mind to be with her, because she can be real sweet and loving. She makes me feel really good and I love her a lot.
So we started fresh, or so I thought. Now this.
Since the incident a few days ago, she keeps calling me to come up by her so we can talk. But I have refused. I want to go because I love her, but I know she is looking to make love to me so I would forgive her, but I am not ready for that.
Just to think that another man has touched her since me got me so vex. You see, I don’t care who she had and how many men she had before me, but it is what happens while we are together that matters.
I love her and don’t want to lose her to anyone else, but I just can’t bear the thought that she may do this again.
I don’t know what to do. I wish I could make her understand that I love her and don’t just want her for sex. Why she can’t see that the other men she had only wanted that while I think she is special and I’m willing to take care of her?
Women all over Barbados are always complaining that they can’t find a good man, and here I am being faithful and true, and now I get horn. She ain’t fair to me at all.
